Mixtapes, mixcds, mixed up
Thursday, 4 May at 16:19
Like probably most of the people in here I'm addicted to making mixes for friends & loved ones, though not that interested ever in making mixes for myself. Usually what I'll do is listen to one of the mixes I've made for someone else and enjoy it / judge it, trying to envision how I could've made it better or how to do better on the next one. For a while I was nearly incapable of making mixes as I sold nearly my collection and left the country for Australia. That only lasted 4 months and now I'm back in the states, poor, in-debt but with tons of music thanks to a new-ish computer with massive hard drive capacity and a part-time job at a second-hand CD store.
Right now I'm in the midst of planning a 2-disc mix for a dude I barely know but met through this girl I was seeing. He's leaving the area, pretty much for good for school. He's a good guy and made a good impression and I wanted to send him off with a cool mix that of course traverses all the genres but completely makes sense. I think actually today is the last day I'll have an opportunity to see him before he leaves and there's no way I'll have it done, so I have to rely on his roommates to hook me up with his contact info, which is kind of a pain because the girl I was seeing isn't really seeing much of me these days. Oh well, it'll happen. I'm not sure why it became so important that I make him this mix, but I guess that's sort of who I am - if I meet you and I like you, I want to give to you of myself & time. I want the memory of me and how I can be to be somehow on some level indelibly imprinted within you. Kind of egotistical, but essentially in a good way. It's my way of saying I'm willing to go the extra effort and you're worth it. Honestly, I'd love to make a(nother) mix CD for the girl I was seeing but that'd be wrong wrong wrong. I want her back, but a mixCD ain't the way. In fact, that's laughable. Besides, I've made her 2 2-CD mixes (one for Valentine's Day, one for her birthday), she's liked them, but like other things I think at this point it's falling by the side. Maybe that's one of the additional reasons I want to leave her roommate with something - I'd made him a mix before and he was very vocal about how much he enjoyed it. I feel I'm disappearing in the daily consideration of the girl and therefore that household and I find this particularly sad.
Like probably most of the people in here I'm addicted to making mixes for friends & loved ones, though not that interested ever in making mixes for myself. Usually what I'll do is listen to one of the mixes I've made for someone else and enjoy it / judge it, trying to envision how I could've made it better or how to do better on the next one. For a while I was nearly incapable of making mixes as I sold nearly my collection and left the country for Australia. That only lasted 4 months and now I'm back in the states, poor, in-debt but with tons of music thanks to a new-ish computer with massive hard drive capacity and a part-time job at a second-hand CD store.
Right now I'm in the midst of planning a 2-disc mix for a dude I barely know but met through this girl I was seeing. He's leaving the area, pretty much for good for school. He's a good guy and made a good impression and I wanted to send him off with a cool mix that of course traverses all the genres but completely makes sense. I think actually today is the last day I'll have an opportunity to see him before he leaves and there's no way I'll have it done, so I have to rely on his roommates to hook me up with his contact info, which is kind of a pain because the girl I was seeing isn't really seeing much of me these days. Oh well, it'll happen. I'm not sure why it became so important that I make him this mix, but I guess that's sort of who I am - if I meet you and I like you, I want to give to you of myself & time. I want the memory of me and how I can be to be somehow on some level indelibly imprinted within you. Kind of egotistical, but essentially in a good way. It's my way of saying I'm willing to go the extra effort and you're worth it. Honestly, I'd love to make a(nother) mix CD for the girl I was seeing but that'd be wrong wrong wrong. I want her back, but a mixCD ain't the way. In fact, that's laughable. Besides, I've made her 2 2-CD mixes (one for Valentine's Day, one for her birthday), she's liked them, but like other things I think at this point it's falling by the side. Maybe that's one of the additional reasons I want to leave her roommate with something - I'd made him a mix before and he was very vocal about how much he enjoyed it. I feel I'm disappearing in the daily consideration of the girl and therefore that household and I find this particularly sad.
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